Debt

I have a strong feeling that my future will be full of debt and expectation.

My mum came and visit me just now, she understand I has been passing my day harder without income.

And she intended to give some pocket money, but I rejected to receive.

I no longer as a baby or child, I am adult and my parent shouldn't have any responsibility to carry me anymore.

It is oppose my self-principle if I take the money.

But the point is, my bank account left not much amount for me to spend on the following months, how could I survive?

Finally, I received the money as a loan from her. I will pay back in my future time while I have the ability to earn income.

After she left, I feel like a huge pressure on my shoulder and I hard to breath.

I so tired to have such a much debt to my sister, parent and ptptn.

I am not sure how valuable a certificate in society, I wonder is it really worth for me to sacrificed my time, money and energy to invest on my education?

Since I not so sure how my future will be, what if the certificate is useless and it couldn't help me to get a better job in future?

I guess it will be a real smash on my face if I found out I have no difference with a fresh SPM or diploma graduate.

Please, I need to finish my study smoothly.

I couldn't receive any more stress and bad news.

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* One more point to add on, I just renewed my driving licence yesterday, happy! :P *