Chill out

Last few weeks I really busy like hell and lost. I just finished my script and storyboard yesterday.

Now everything is under my control although I still got the law report which our group have to type out 40 to 50 pages and also multimedia presentation.

I feel like our group can cooperate well. Really satisfy when seeing my works have be finished one by one. *laugh*

Question marks area "?????"

I never thought that i am a useless person since i am born from my mother. Everything have the first time though. I started feel that i am too much of weaknesses until i have to force myself to admit that I really useless as in the family, and friend circle.

As in the family, I am spending too much money from my family for pocket money, rental, school fees, etc and I can't feel that I'm deserve it. It is not a really big deal though.

The second one, friends, sometimes I really want to stop all the friendship with my friends and just stay alone with my family and pets.

However, it just a temporary thinking for me and I really need friends in my life.

Sometimes friends will be your burden and you can't easily dump it as you like.

You have to take care and carry for them when they need your help.

When they are asking you for help and it will be inconvenience for you to help, so how?

Just refuse?

How to refuse by won't make people getting hurt?What an embarrassing and terrible situation for me!

There is another problem as well.

How did you create and maintain a friendship with friends?

Actually this problem is just occurred during my college period.

Have you ever curious why the friends surrounding you can easily make friends with others but you can't?

Started i will thought that my English is not as good as theirs so it should be the reason to obstruct the extension of my friend circle in college.

But, this thinking was proven inaccurate since i met a friend(called M) which I am assumed that M have the quite similar English ability with me.

M can easily make friends with others, she is friendly perhaps. I think am am too shy maybe, don't know.

I really need someone to tell me what is my problem, this already stressed me since I am stepped in college.

For the teamwork, one of my friends(A) said i have no problem with my attitude for doing the work together but another one(B) gave me a totally opposite answer.

It makes me so confuse most of the times and i don't know which should i believe.

B said i the main problem to me is because i don't know how to express myself.

Yeah, when i met a serious issue i really don know how to convey my message to others.

I don't have the confidence to make others listen to me and believe to my idea.

It can conclude that my English ability makes me scared to express myself.

English, what a challenging language for me, sigh.

Another reason is I might misleading or hurt other people when i fully express myself even i am not that mean.

Do you know how hard for a person if he/she can fully convey the message without hurting people?

It is hard for me, i don't know others though.

For example, today i want to join a group for my presentation assignment.

One of me ex-group mate asked me why I don't want to join the current group instead?

Then i just simply thrown out an answer which I don't know it is freaking wrong answer for her until the other ex-group mate reminded me.

I want to join them because they make me learn more and better even they had stressed me most of the time until I suspected myself if engaged with Melancholia.*Laugh*

I also found out that no other friends will speak English with me except them.

However, I worried that my answer will misleading her to think that I just want to "memperalatkan" her ability to get high mark so i didn't tell her my real answer.

Maybe one day i will not care how other people think about me and just throw out what I am thinking but I know it have to take a long time to make it which is totally against my natural characteristic.

Ipoh 1 day trip

Everything has happened too abrupt, just get a call then already in Ipoh tomorrow, unbelievable.

My friend has invited me to have a one day trip in Ipoh with the reason that she get the car from her family. The trip wasn't be planing but we also don't care, how dare us? *Laugh*

We have the total of four people to go. We went out at 8 something morning then came back around 9pm.


We are on the way to Ipoh.

The most memorable was the food over there. I ate none stop since I arrived there until I have an intention to throw out everything I ate, the food quite nice though, especially the egg tarts and the taufu hua.

Just came out from the oven,it's still hot.

The taufu hua so nice and sweet.

Then we went to the amusement park since we got the extra time. Over there got the "fake beach" and we can play volleyball as well. I like the park there which has gave the feeling of natural.I can sit on the chair and enjoy the sun light touch on my skin, the feeling so warm.

Do you feel the natural in the park?


We are in the "fake beach"

I think he is trying to catch the ball by his leg, we are not playing football lar~~~

The end of our trip is having a freaking nice seafood as the dinner. It was the first time for me to taste the oyster(have to add with the lemon juice) and a very long+big "lai liu ha", damn excited.

They(oysters) do look tasty right?

Another suprise is the bill though, really "dai chut huet". Anyway, it is worth for me to the day.